Publishing work

The act of publishing seemingly important artifacts of your existence on the internet or through another medium.

Common arguments in favor of this:

My problem

Personally I have a a two problems with this act:

1. I don’t want to be a waste of space

It might be my impostor syndrome speaking, but I feel like I don’t have anything to contribute with.

Browsing the internet and the for all intents and purposes limitless amount of blogs and virtural notepads there, makes me not want to add to it since I feel like most of this content is a bit useless and superficial. I don’t want to be a part of it.

Because of the sheer amount of writing online I in effect feel like I’m just polluting the space by adding yet more content.

Unless what I share is very good, I don’t feel I should share it.

2. I want to do what I do in secret

A big part of me simply does not want to share anything. This is effectively the hermit part of me. It’s a weird drive that I’m not entirely sure where comes from.

The feeling is of wanting to always have a trick up the sleeve.

Some mysterious and unknown part of me that people don’t know of unless they know me well. I don’t want to push my abilities or my interests.

Solutions

Getting over this is something I do not know how to do, and quite frankly nor do I know whether I want to.

1 is easily solved; I just have to create useful non-bullshit content that is actually interesting and not just reproductions.

2 on the other hand is harder to grapple with simply because all it really comes down to is personal choice. Maybe I can choose to share parts of me and the things I do. Realising that I won’t be able to share all of it even if I tried.

The importance

One could say that sharing your results and insights is a duty you have towards others. Because it can help and improve other people’s chances at reaching their goals and living life well.

Keeping things for yourself turns you into some sort of knowledge cul-de-sac.

A sort of dead-end. Where insights are gained but never done anyting with. Maybe except change your behaviour and perspective and thus indirectly change the world through the way you treat others.